Mommy Is Sad

Mommy is still unhappy today. She is so moody. When she reach home from her class, she didn't talk to me. Reach home just sit in front of the computer. After awhile I saw her started to cry. I don't know what happen. I wanted to kiss her but she don't wanna hug me up the chair. She just stares at the computer and cry. Then suddenly she ran to her bed, cover herself with blanket. I know she was still crying. I feel so sad seeing her like that. HELP!

Away..

Just a short note, away for the week. =)

Headache

Remember my head accident? It doesn't give me pain for awhile now, but now I am feeling it is so pain. The wound there is aching. No idea what's the cause. I guess I am feeling sick today. Feeling hot and cold, no energy and don't wanna leave the bed. Woke up 10am+ till now, I have never eaten anything. Mom tapao me my lunch, its still sitting there until now. I just don't have the appetite to eat. Guess somehow I need to swallow something, because I feel the need to take the pain killer. I hope there's nothing wrong with my head.

My mom scares me saying people die after 2 weeks they knocked their head........ touchwood LOL... if it ever happens then sayonara everyone ^_^ Hope someone will help me take care my kids.... ROFL..

Betrayer

I couldn't believe it when someone you have known for years actually betrays you. It is so heartbreak knowing that he betrayed you when you gave him trust. The human world is sickening. I shouldn't have trust him, and I don't even know why I should in the first place. No one can be trusted except yourself.

I had a Nightmare

I had a nightmare last night. It makes me jump up from my sleep. It was so real that I thought it was really happened. It was the thing that I am afraid of happening in my life in the future. I was so frightened by the nightmare. I couldn't continue my sleep, and my mind keep think I should pull a full stop on this. I am really scared.

People says, dreams are the things that you have been thinking all day, and it repeats in your mind during your sleeping time. But I would say, this thing I have not been keep thinking before. This thought came to me after Xmas, and I am very sure I have only think about it 2-3 times. I would only think "What if ...." and then I did not further imagine. And the scene come exactly in my dream! Something even worse then I could ever imagine.

There are so many other things that I keep thinking, such as "being a millionaire" but this does not appear in my dream. Sigh, what should I do now? I am really afraid my nightmare comes true in my life...

Edit to add, I just found this from here:

Fear Dream Meaning

Psychological Meaning: Bad memories, feelings of guilt, self-doubt, worries, anger, carnal desires, insecurities and anxieties are often pushed out of our waking thoughts and repressed. Nightmares occur when these hidden fears force us to pay attention to them. This is a opportunity to discover what part of you is threatening to destroy your inner peace. What is it that you fear so much that you have to push it away into the darkness of the unconscious?

Mystical Meaning: The superstitions come close to modern psychology with this one: If you overcome whatever frightens you in your dreams, you will also overcome the things that frighten you in waking life.

Read the bold text... I need to overcome the frightens in my dreams to overcome the frightens in my waking life. My first thought when I was waken by my nightmare is "I SHOULD STOP IT"... so does it means I need to do so?

Accident & Updates

I would like to update blog earlier, but I had some minor accident (I knocked my head and had 2 stitches, not telling you where it is haha…) and I have been resting for days. I’m not going to talk more about that, not something worth celebrating LOL. Don’t ask me! I’m not going to tell =P No matter what.

So, let me update about today before I updates what have passed for the week. First, me, I went for another check up at the clinic today, and got myself for some antibiotic. And the doctor cleans my wound. And that she took away my RM38. I wonder how much is her consultation fees, as she did not itemized in her bill.

And when I was away to the clinic and lunch with my kaijie and her sister, my mom called. She called my kaijie’s sister because I and my kaijie didn’t realize our phone rang. When she hangs up, she told me “Hey, your mom says your daughter is hungry, ask you faster go home and feed her”… and I answered, “Nevermind lah, it’s only 1pm, sometimes I fed her about 3pm”. At this moment, one auntie that was sitting at the same table (friends of the sister) gave a shocking face and asked me, “You never fixed a time to feed her?” At this moment, I guess she thought the “daughter” my mom was talking about is a human-girl, so I simply told her, “It’s a dog”. Both my kaijie and the sister were laughing so badly, and the auntie giving black face…. I don’t know whether I should join in the laugh or what, I just smiled hahaaha =P

BTW, don't think that I am cruel to feed my dogs at 3pm instead of 1pm for lunch. I do not specifically set their meal time. This is to prevent they act like alarm clock to ask for meals. Dogs that are feed on time daily tends to know the meal time eventually. They will be making lots of noise if you are late giving them their meal for the day. So far, my girls never complain if I give them food late, especially Miki. She eats when she happy. As for Sushi, as long as she doesn’t smell any food, she is ok. If I prepared her food but not feeding her yet (I put on the table), she will be guarding her bowl, not moving anywhere until I feed her.

Photos of the day:

She is kinda messy, need a nice bath tomorrow. Oh yeah, I am back in Mentakab already. And I forgot to bring back her Cameron-Vege-Puree, so I gotta go and shop for some greens tomorrow.